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| UGH. I'm getting depressed just thinking about tomorrow & how much it's going to bite the big one. I have to work at three, meaning I'm going to miss church AND I'm also going to miss dinner at the house. I haven't missed church on Christmas Eve in...ever I think. I hate it. And I'm starting to get cramps. Oh great. I haven't gotten a single gift for anyone & I just hate hate hate it. I'm so poor I want to cry & it seems like at every turn something happens and more money is being flushed down the toilet. Geeze Louise, does it ever end? Sorry I'm being such a debbie downer right now. I'm just having an off night. Lots on the brain. Too much I suppose. And who the heck am I to complain anyway? Things could be so much worse. I'm so blessed with everything I have. Okay. I'm over it. God is so good.
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| Anywhere you find yourself living there is always going to be something keeping you from being completely comfortable in your own skin. That is, until you make a place of your own. I can't wait for that moment when I finally feel 'home' again.
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| Behold, as the lilies of the field, and as the grass, so your life is but for a season. Yes, though you flourish in health, yet your time is short. You have no sure promise of tomorrow. Therefore live each day as though it were your last. Seize each opportunity, knowing that it may be your last.
For it is certainly true that no situation presents itself twice the same. The opportunities of today are not those of tomorrow. Do not live as though they might be repeated. Do not fail to enter every open door, or be held back by a feelings of unreadiness. I Myself am your preparation.
I will give you the needed grace and wisdom for each moment as it comes, and you will rejoice in victory. For I will overcome timidity, and I myself with displace inadequacy. This is My work. I will do it Myself through you if you allow yourself to be a channel for the flow of My Spirit.
For I myself am the life. I myself am your wisdom & your strength, even as I am your joy and your peace. I am your victory. My word is power, because My word is spirit & truth.
Do not bear needless burdens. They will only press upon you spirit and interfere with my movings. Much remains to be accomplished. Linger not over what appears to be an unfinished case. Pass on. My spirit will continue to strive though you give no further thought. In this way your mind shall be kept free & your path open, and it shall always be a new way.
Keep moving always, and from life to life I will accomplish My purpose. And know as I work, all things work together, so that there is gathering strength, and there shall be a glorious consummation. Praise God!
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| And it's STILL snowingggg! I woke up this morning with everything covered in white & it's still coming down full throttle. I had work all day though, so I was stuck inside the restaurant for the storm. It's funny how crazy scared people get when the weather turns on them. I mean, the snow was bad, but it wasn't THAT bad. We had around 140 reservations on the books tonight and we had like 100 cancellations or something? It was crazy because tonight is supposed to be the busiest night, not only for us but for pretty much every business for the holiday season. They even closed the mall! The KOP mall for goodness sakes! The news was reporting on the snow almost the entire day, so at least I got to watch people having fun in the snow ;) Better than nothing. Tomorrow though. I'm going sledding. No doubt. I can't even remember the last time it came down this much. It's so exciting & I love it because it feels like everyone always comes together during these times. It's definitely something to smile about. Esp since Christmas is so near! I remember growing up I would wish for it to snow on Christmas, or at least around Christmas time. It just makes it so much better you know? It actually makes it FEEL like Christmas. So, even if it doesn't snow then, at least we'll still have the white all around.
I worked 30 hours this week. I can't wait for my check. I NEED it. phew.
I just watched a documentary on the History channel about September 11th. They got together a group of people who were there when it happened. What they all had in common was that they had documented the events of that day on a video camera. It was shocking to see all the different footage, all the different view points. Still. After all this time it took my breath away. It's so easy to forget the things that happen to us. And when we do, that's when it happens again. "Those who forget are destined to remember", that was the quote Mr. Cella had on his wall in high school & I will never forget it. It's just so true. In every aspect of life.
I missssssss my best friend!
I feel like I haven't had one second to sit down and stay still. Thankfully I have tomorrow, Monday, AND Tuesday off! So I should definitely be able to get my act together during that time.
I talked to my Sammie babie today & now I'm so pumped for our trip!
Jordan & I have a date tomorrow with Allison & Jordan. Dinner, movies, drinks, back to the apartment to chilllllll & play games??? Sounds like a plan to me. You know whats funny? I have two friends named Allison who's boyfriends names are Jordan. How crazy is that? Not to mention how much I have in common with both of them. It's crazy ridiculous. God really does have such a sense of humor with me :)))
I need to save every penny I earn so I can get my butt to Brooklyn asap. Every single day brings me closer to itttttt :)))
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| Life is crazy hectic. I've been getting quite overwhelmed lately. There is just so much to be doing and it just isn't getting done fast enough. I hate that feeling. Why do I always have to be so controling? I seriously just need to take a deep breath & give it up. This anxiety isn't going to help me get through & get done all the things needed to be done. I'm not in control, I don't want to forget that but I constantly do. My best friend just graduated college & I'm so proud of her. I can't wait to get there. I went to a party at Elya's the other night & it was nice getting to see some old faces. It was the roaring 20's themed, and well, I'll do anything for an excuse to dress up! Too bad on the way there & back Steve almost killed the three of us 100 times driving like a speed car racer then decided to be a show off and ended up really hurting his car. I almost had a heart attack...and then I laughed. real hard. dum dum. I have a girlfriend. Her name is Allison Shields. California in two weeks. I CANTTTTTTTTT WAITTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!! Weddings & marriage have been being talked about a lot lately. I'm so in love & this time is so different than before. So much better. It's amazing to see how God works. Why He does what He does. It sucks going through the trials, but the outcome of them is always more than worth it. The times when all I am doing is trusting in Him, those are the times when I have been the most blessed, have seen incredible miracles happen. I never want this to end. This is a forever kind of thing I think ;) I'm poor. I only hate it because I can't buy Christmas presents. ugh. I can't even buy things to MAKE Christmas presents. It's just so depressing. I could drink carton after carton of egg nog. | | |
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